#20 Sabbatical at Home
Being home and not doing anything is just plain weird, although I seem to be able to accomplish..., nothing. I work out in the morning at the gym, and basically get nothing done for the rest of the day. How is that possible? More than that, I am tired at the end of the day. I am ready for bed at 9 semi exhausted. Ahh, I did nothing!
I got to see my friends at church and at the gym (again) today. It was good to see the familiar faces. It was good to catch up with Brian. Especially about his personal life. It wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be not to accomplish some work. My office held no “calling” for me to get some work done. I am on sabbatical. No guilt. No compulsion. That’s progress. I could see a few things that needed to be accomplished and I didn’t do them.
I am more relaxed and as my kids would say, “chill”. I still hold passion high but it seems like passion hasn’t been released in any particular way except towards my wife. We have spent so much time together and holding her is still grand. When she reaches for my hand when driving, I still like it. It still holds something special. I think I have told her that I love her more than usual. Maybe triple or more.
I have spirts of gladness, hope and faith that I am rewriting my brain. Mostly I am just hopeful. To operate differently for the next 30 years or whatever God graces me with on this earth is a great prospect. This perhaps is the most exciting and beneficial thing about sabbatical.
This week starts more rest. More down time. More rejuvenation. I am really looking forward to it. It is not like I haven’t had any, I have! Yet, this week begins another level. Bring it.